Apart from half a day last Saturday (12th), I haven’t been to my office since 19th December as my dad’s cancer kicking-in coincided with Christmas and I’ve barely left the house for a month now.
It all got a bit much last week and I had a bit of a meltdown on the 10th, but once I’d stopped crying and we’d started my brother’s proper rota system on Monday this week, things picked up considerably.
Between us, we’re all doing a fixed stint each day which means that when we’re not ‘on duty’ we’re able to go about our business ‘guilt-free’.
It’s working really well, and although I’ve still barely left the house this week it’s meant that I’ve been able to shut myself upstairs to write this week’s blog secure in the knowledge that my dad’s in good hands downstairs.
He’s not had a good week. Without going into details, let’s just say that he’s deteriorated further, and that he’s not happy at still being alive. Each day he’s saying that he wants to die and that why can’t we just let him die?
The various nurses and carers who have been in and out of the house most days all feel that same, and yet they’re compelled by law to keep him alive.
I’m SO grateful for the help and support we’re getting, but SURELY the Council’s limited resources would be FAR better spent on helping people who WERE likely to recover than people with terminal cancer who are asking to die and for whom there is no hope?
As from Monday, we’re getting two carers to come in for half an hour morning and night to attend to his personal needs, as he’s so weak now that he’s unable to even sit up unaided. Even though he’s skin and bone he’s a ‘dead’ weight, and we can’t lift him or even pull him up in bed properly without the risk of hurting either him or ourselves. So sad.
Friday’s snow put a spanner in the works a bit (here’s the view looking up the Crescent from my bedroom window late on Friday afternoon), and it led to an emergency re-jigging of my ironing work so that I didn’t have to go out on Friday.
I normally clean Mr and Mrs S’s office between 6.00 and 7.30 am on a Friday morning, but if I’d gone I’d have ended up being stranded as it’s up a long country lane and the snow came down so quickly and heavily that Swindon pretty-much ground to a halt within the space of an hour.
Gremlins in Tellyspy’s works forced the cancellation on Wednesday’s Soapy Corners Live; having to do Friday’s work on Thursday meant that I wasn’t able to do my Soapy Spot on Alastair Greener’s show, and Swindon being under a blanket of snow meant that Paul and I were unable to get to the Station to do our show at 4.00 on Friday afternoon, so I didn’t do ANY radio broadcasting last week!
Hopefully this week will be a bit less dramatic. It’s a case of taking each day as it comes at the moment with my dad, and – combined with the bad weather – it all makes for a bit of a challenge, but having the rota’s made things 100% easier to cope with, so let’s hope this next week goes ok.
I’ll be doing my Soapy Spot on Alastair Greener’s Big Mid-morning show from 10.45-11.15 on Thursday and co-presenting my TGI Friday show with Paul Dawkins from 4.00-5.00 pm on Friday; both on Swindon 1055.com, and ‘Jane’s Soapy Corners’ are LIVE as usual from 6.00-6.30 pm every Wednesday night on Tellyspy.
‘Jane’s Soapy Corners’ have also gone digital. Simply download the Podcasts App onto your iPhone or iPad then search for Tellyspy and they’re all there.
Have a good week everyone.